First Blog

I decided today that it was time for some changes in my life. I graduated May 2008 from the University of Kentucky and am still unemployed! I had an interview yesterday and walked away feeling excellent thinking "wow that went really well" however I didn't hear a thing from the principal so now I am thinking "definitely didn't get that one." It seems that this entire year has been filled with one let down after another. I even joke and say that I am paying for a past life or something because nothing seems to go as planned these days.

I decided to start this blog for myself figure I have nothing to hide. Today, starts a new day for myself no wallowing in self-pity, no more sitting at home feeling sorry for myself because I don't have a job, and no more envying what others have. I am going to use my energy to be a better person and make a difference, after all I went into teaching because I wanted to leave behind a legacy in the lives of people--why can't I do that now? I have been away from God for too long and that leads me to yet another goal for myself I am going to gain that FRIEND again! Life seemed so much easier with HIM by my side. Perhaps, all this year has been a test to show me how miserable life can be without HIM in it??!! Some people would probably disagree.

Because I have been bummed today and had several mini-breakdowns (crying fits I call um') I have been quite productive cleaning house! Wes will be thrilled to come home to a clean house if nothing else. Sadly, I will say I just don't want to talk to anyone right now...mean ? I just want to be mad for a little while (think that is a Country Song) I want to be able to cry and scream if I want to!

This blog will probably make no sense to anyone, but it is acting as a form of therapy for myself...I just want to rant and rant and for once not be interrupted or made to feel worse because my situation does not stack up against someone elses bad luck or situation. I have seriously put in applications at four different school districts and guess what I only have received 2 interviews!!!! I am educated though you probably cannot tell with this all-over blog, but I really am capable of teaching and being a good teacher! I just don't understand why I havent landed more interviews. I am double certified both elementary and learning and behavior disorders and all I heard throughout college is that I'd definitely "NOT" have any trouble finding a job---haha REALLY NOW?!

So, there ya have it I am unemployed mad at the world today, but desperately wanting to get closer to GOD in the days to come. I used to have such a strong relationship with him and when I felt as though I had absolutely nothing it didn't matter because I had EVERYTHING because I had GOD. I will attempt blogging daily, but no promises---I will update on how life is going. I am determined to make the best out of this year I actually think good things can happen and that there's a light at the end of the tunnel. I need to re-learn patience because a year in limbo has left me very impatient. Anyways, I guess I must go and put this stress to better use by tackling the kitchen...wish me luck!